Losing close friends ia always tough. We have to remember them and enjoy the time we had while keeping going as no matter how hard we grieve , we can not change what has ( tragically) happened. We can visit the past , but can't live there.
Godspped to your dear friend , maybe he'll run into our friend Kiwi (rip) or my dear friend Joe ( rip ) from Canada , who I lost to cancer years ago . I remember both all the time.
Randy